Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Death Says: "Remember Me?"

It’s gotta be like this: when one thing takes flight another thing lands. And now an upcoming death has got me thinking about mortality ‘n shit ‘n purpose ‘n happiness. Just when you think you have it all figured out, someone passes on and you get angry when you understand that they didn’t have it all figured out. You want to shake them from death’s grip and say “Listen up! See what you’ve missed! Look at what you could have had!” I’m talking about the things that money can’t buy. I’m thinking about the things that should be important.
So will death’s reminder bring my own Father the epiphany that he needs? Probably not. My thinking is that the death of the last substantial lineage with where he comes from will either cause him to retreat further into himself or produce a resentment that has been increasingly noticeable in the past few years. There are things that he can’t control, and it bothers him. The sad thing is that what he actually could control isn’t being addressed. He’s very lucky to have my Mother; I’m not sure if others would receive his emotional shallowness in much the same way as she does. I really hope that one day he can put away the baggage and demonstrate some feelings. The mindless bickering that he often creates does not serve his intelligence well and is extremely unpleasant to be around. And regarding that epiphany? I’m not waiting around for it to happen.
So with that bummer in mind, some things that have brought things into perspective. Think of it as the “enjoy every sandwich” list.

  • Episode III-Quite simply a badass piece of work that renewed my faith in the whole George Lucas franchise. Aside from a few minor flaws, it’s the best thing since “Empire.” And even “Empire” had a few minor flaws. Let me remind you that Billy Dee Williams was in that thing, and even he makes Samuel L. Jackson look Shakespearean. There were times during the film in which I was actually thinking “This thing is totally awesome!” If you don’t believe me, consider the Godshonesttruth that I went into the theatre expecting just a hair better than Episode I or II. About halfway through it, I began realizing that is was on par with the original trilogy. By movie’s end, I was firmly convinced it was right on par with “Empire.”
  • Take 5 Candy bars-I want to thank the pothead who came up with this motherfucking delicious confection. Don’t let the “let’s throw a bunch of shit in there” ingredient list fool you. It’s most awesome and, again, even I went into my first one with a “what the fuck are they putting pretzels in candy bars?” attitude. Every single Goddamn person I have recommended it to has walked away from one with a “damn, that’s a tasty sucker” comment. Except for one douchebag at work, but that fucker is into Butterfingers. Hershey is the shit. Fuck Nestle.
  • Cat Power’s “Willie Deadwilder”-Now before you think “Oh great, here’s Worpswede going off on yet another Chan Marshall jerkoff” let me declare how fucking great this two-chorded eighteen plus minute piece of work is. Swear to God, this song has brought me close to tears and perfectly summarizes my love of the S.L.F. in more ways than I could possibly compose myself. It’s like Chan got into my head and wrote down the words I was too chickenshit to admit. Sample:

With your love I have foothold

I can carry on

But please don't let me worry you now

Please don't let me worry you now

There's nothing I am saying

That could ever be made wrong

I love you, love you so

I love you so strong

Please remember your heart in me

Please remember it's not anatomically correct

Please know there's no boundary

And if God is willing to protect

Our love, a world of love

I think you'd be willing too

Where are you from

And where are you going to

We have so much to do

Where you are going is

Where you do come from

And where I will be is with you

We have so much to do

We have so much to do

We have so much to do

Hurry, hurry, hurry let's go

Hurray, hurray, things are gonna be okay

Hurry, hurry let's go

All them children are waiting

It's time and they are ready

We got so much to do

And if God is willing

We have got so much

We have got so much

And if you thought the post would end without another picture of Chan, you'd be wrong...


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